今晚,因为我两个temporary roomate都有课,得我一个人吃晚餐,当然也得我一个人煮拉。不算丰盛，只有一菜一肉，没汤，好不习惯！开了电视，想重温在国内吃饭的场景——电视送饭。因为没装cable,来来去去都是几个台，看不到US OPEN，觉得来美国也是白来啊！（不过看了一个极其搞笑又有创意的麦片广告。广告里一位中年男性在每天早餐都吃这种巨有营养的麦片，一天早上他妻子突然拿住跟验孕棒向丈夫投诉，然后镜头转向他们的全家福，这对夫妻已有4个孩子拉。我终于体验到美国的开放文化。）来这里半个多月拉，好似没试过自己一个人吃饭，而且还是吃自己的“杰作”。这种寂寞，我开始享受，故忍不住把可爱的饭菜用照片记录下来。刚开始吃得好起劲，可能少了个人争吃，越吃越没味道，人总是矛盾的。

     可能是homesick的缘故，来的这几个星期煮的饭菜甚丰盛，当然不能跟国内比，但对于这里的学生来说已是大餐了。每日我家只要有两个人以上一起吃饭，就必定有一菜，一肉，一汤；若有三个人，则有两肉，一菜，一汤，有时还会有糖水，而且肉还是牛排或猪排（这里的牛排卖得其贵啊）。也因为如此，我发觉我的厨艺特飞猛进，原来不会煮的菜，突然间给我乱碰乱撞搞出来，比如玉米羹、红豆绿豆汤、牛排、猪排......虽然不能说很美味，但至少能入口，而且volunteers都没意见，甚至话好吃。突然发觉煮饭也是种乐趣，但好耗时间啊，煮一顿就用了成个几钟。

     今晚突然心血来潮，吃完饭后，把在美国买的东西和家里情景都照了相并放到相册上，终于满足叶叶对我的要求拉，完了一件任务。

     照完相就开始温书拉。还没开学上课，就已经有一大堆reading要读，好烦啊，全都是英文。即使是中文我都未必读得明，更不要说是“硬个老扫”。还是觉得自己的语言最亲切。有时在这边讲电话，讲讲下，习惯性走神，都不知道对方讲咩，觉得自己耳仔有问题，听不清。算拉，是自己听力不掂，关耳仔咩事。Orientation时，老师在上面讲，突然下面哈哈哈大笑，都不知他们在笑咩，自己在那里傻楞。有时听懂了，但不明白他们为什么甘无聊都笑餐懵。朋友话，这是因为我对美国的culture不了解。在哩度，觉得有点连印度人都不如，虽然他们的英语极其怪异，听极都听不懂，但起码他们的母语是英文，起码同老师沟通好自如。那天的orientation,老师让学生提问，然后D“阿叉”好似雨后春笋般问起问题。而在场的众中国同胞居然没人提问。为了国体，本来我没问题，硬想了个无聊问题问老师，可能因为紧张，讲得其快，不过老师明白我的问题，但好敷衍的回答，然后又转向那些印度人。顿时觉得好淤，个墨西哥老师好偏帮印度人啊。她自己都话cause we are dark, welcome to join my research. 皮肤黑好劲咩？

     今日心情好差，觉得自己写得乱七八糟，有好多野想写，但又不知如何穿插。人总是无奈的！

Last night, I dreamed of my BF for the first time since I have been in Syracuse. He was wearing a navy coat and a deep blue sweater inside with a cap, handsome as be4 in my dream. I felt cold at that time cause my quilt fell down on the ground. Then he gave me a hug to make me warm. At that time in my dream I thought that how deeply he loves me and when I need help he will give me a hand at any time. Woke up in the moring, I knew that he is the only one who is worths my love for my whole life.

I gave hime a phone call this morning and told him the dream I made last night. He felt sorry that this was the first time I met him in dream since I am abroad, cause he has dreamed of me for many times. Sometimes I hate myself that I don't treasure the ones around me, including my friends, parents, relatives and of course my BF. When I lost or leave them, I find how important they are for me. Become mature, fatrabbit. You are not the little girl only needs others' care and pamper any more but a "women" learns to take good care of others. Fighting!

A friend named Li Wei has moved temporarily into my apartment for a few days. He was at the same department and university as me in China. And we both are the natives of Canton so we speak the same native language. Cause we grew up in the similar environment and culture, our tastes have many places in common, such as we both like vegetables, yougurt, and cantonese soup. Yesterday, we invite Gao jie, my classmate here to our apartment for dinner. We two cooked coke chicken wings, Chinese-style steak, some vegetalbes and pig bone soup with carrot. Afer dinner, I cooked some green bean sweet water(lv dou tang shui) as dessert. How great! It was my first time to do this kind of sweet water and they all enjoyed it much.  Just as the old saying "no sweat no sweet", it is my greatest pleasure for the hard work I have paid. But the food we have had seems much too plentiful. We, as students afforded by the family, should not live such a "luxury" life, or else we would become poor and fat. But Wei said if we eat less or worse, our health would turn bad. So just let it go.   

I don't know why my mood is really down today. I planed to read the required books, but was kept disturbing. Though I began to find the book a little interesting, I didn't have time to chew it. BF rang to me at 1:00am, complaining that I had not given him phone calls for a few days and not cared him any more. I had no choice but put down my book, talked to him through msn for a afternoon.

For dinner, I only had some noodles and lettuce. After dinner, a boy came to my apartment. He graduated from the same university and department as me and now is the graduate student of IST , SU too. By coincidence, he speaks Cantonese too, the native language I speak. Next evening, he would move into my apartment and might live here till October. Cause we grew up at a similar culture and enviroment, I am glad that I could speak Cantonese to him at a strange city and hope he would have a nice time here.

 Welcome!

For yesterday's dinner, I cooked coke chicken wings, garlic brocoli and pig feet soup with peanuts. Fortunately, they were all edible though I found a little salty. But my roomate Xu thought it was ok. Thanks to him for being the volunteer. Though I would like to cook by myself more, I don't know how to deal with the stuff here. The stuffs I only know how to cook are chicken wings, some vegetalbes and soups. I think I would feel allergic to chicken soon.  

How time flies. I have been in Syracuse for a week. The water I drink here most of the time is so cold that I have had a stomachache for a few days and eat less than b4. I hope i would become thinner at the cost of stomachache. Just kidding.

Last night, the members of our apartment and a couple went shopping together at Walt-mart and  I bought a door mirror there and placed it in my room. After shopping, we went to  Restaurant for dinner and I enjoyed the crabs there, though they tasted not so good as the ones of my hometown.

Dinner finished, I gave s to my parents seperately cause they were at different cities then. It was difficult for me to fall asleep for nearly a whole night after i talked to my father. I felt that his eyes were wet at the . I knew he was worried about me. But I want to tell you, father, I am not so fragile as you think. I could manage it. At the same time, i become worried about your job too, which has been disturbing you for many years. How could I do now? Besiedes taking good care of myself and trying my best to study, I could do nothing for you. What I hope now is I would become indepent and be not of your burden any more.

Today, my roomate Tao has already taken the to HK at 9:00am. I just said to him "-- Road IIIpage ~"(yi lu shun feng) and didn't see him off cause I hate the scene of farewell. He didn't sleep nearly whole night busy with packing. Thank you for taking good care of me for a week. I feel really sorry to trouble you so much. I can't express my gratitude to you in words. I wish you would enjoy the trip at hometown.  One more thing, remember to take the things I have told you.

I haven't checked my mailbox for nearly 3 days. When I open it this day, there is a big surprise from my dear BF. He send me a mail talking about his low mood without me and showed some pictures he took in Wuzhen and the gifts he bought there for me.Cause I have a habit to buy some pictures of the place I have ever visited. But last time I went to Wuzhen alone and forget to buy one. What a wonder he did it for me! He also bought me an ancient-styled fan. There is a poem that he wrote for me on it.

When I was reading his mail, I can't keep crying in the Link Hall. I keep asking myself why I choose to leave him alone in China. The life here is boring and pressing. I can't forget the paper I should finish all the time. It is hard for me to complete the required readings all in English. Anyway, I will try my best to cope with it.

Last night, a friend i know here invited me to see a movie. It was difficult for me to understand the lines of the film all in English. Fortunately, the friend explained the film so well to me that I could understand it finally. And the fruit juice he bought for me is tasty. Cause the drink was too cold and i had a stomachache, i felt sorry that i did't finish it. But thank you for giving me such a warm welcome at Syracuse. 

Hey, my dear friends. I am now in Syracuse Univerity. The weather here is so dry that my lip is "broken". The sunshine here is strong and the night here is very cold. But I think i will prefer the summer here than the one of Guangzhou. There are many Indian international students here. I think i should work hard to make myself compective cause many indians are diligent and intelligent.

I know some new friends here and how lucky I have a great roomate. He has been helping me a lot. Before the fall semester, i have many things to do. It makes me headache to finish a mandatory paper before my first class. I hope I could manage it well.

The things here are very cheap if i don't transfer their price to RMB. I have bought a nice, pink cell phone, the same one with my boy friend's, and some daily things. My room is nearly empty except two single mattress, a closet, a chair and lamps. Cause my roomate is a man, the apartment is not so clean. But i will try my best to clean and decorate it.

Here, i want to say thank you to my dear roomates, Tao zhimin and Xu Shiliyang. They heal my homesickness a lot. What a pity, Tao will go back to HK next Tuesday. I don't know if I could handle everthing well here without him. But I will learn to be independent and take good care of myself.

I miss u all, my dear friends. When I settle down, I will ring to u as soon as possible.

Good luck to you all.

     明早我就要去上海，在上海待一天后，周一下午就会飞去雪城。父母只送我到白云机场，BF会一直陪我到上海。首先要告别我的父母同好友，心里真是好难受。晚上在收拾行李的时候，接到了叶子的电话，她向我道别。说着说着，她眼泪又掉下来，在电话里哭起来。现在回想起刚才的那一幕，我自己也不禁掉泪，但，是感动的泪水。离别时的泪珠让我意识到我们11年的友谊是多么纯洁、真挚和宝贵，黄金钻石也换不来。我们不因曾经的失去联络，距离的远近，岁月的流逝而淡化彼此的友情。她心里一直有我，而我心里也永远为她留着一个位置。她在blog中写到，无论我怎么说她，也生不起我气来。的确如此，在我们初中共处的日子里，我没少作弄她，有时还发她脾气，疏远她。但她一直对我不离不弃，一直将我看得很重，不曾因为我对她所做的过分离谱事而放弃彼此的友情。最近她因为工作而烦心、失眠、沮丧甚至想不开。可我真的很笨，心里很着急，却不知道如何安慰她，逗她开心，让她想开一点。我最大的缺点就是不能为朋友分忧解难。叶子，原谅我吧，也理解我吧！

     叶子，我真的爱你，可我不知道如何去爱你！人一辈子有如此一挚友足矣！我会在大洋彼岸想念你，祝福你（PS：到时你打喷嚏别怪我，我真的太想你了，情难自控）！&你都要祝福我，平安顺利到达，过得开心！

      前几天，BF突然来电话问我哪里有毛笔、宣纸、墨、砚这些卖，哪里可以装裱字画。我觉得很奇怪，平时对书法毫无认识也不感兴趣的他怎么会突然问起。然后他说想提高自己的修养，练习书法。直到昨天他才告诉我，他作了一首诗赠我，想用毛笔写下来，然后拿去裱，给我带到国外。但是，他把毛笔等工具买回来后，写了几张后才发现自己的书法实在不行，字写得太丑了，所以放弃了。最后，他还是用签字笔把首小诗工整地写给我看。当时我看完的第一反应就是搞笑。诗如下：

                                               越洋求学路漫漫，纵然坎坷金不换。

      他人就是这样，整天有稀奇古怪的想法，突然来点幽默爆笑的。如果不开心或者无聊想找点乐子，他可以满足你的要求。我就是喜欢他的幽默，虽然他整天爱讽刺我，说我胖、矮、笨、多痘，但还是觉得甜蜜，难得他比我“笨”不介意我的缺点！

      8月2日是我生日，刚刚把生日的照片放上 space 就已经过了12点。生日过了，但我还是应该把昨天--开心美满的一天记录下来。

      一早，妈妈就请我去 Big Echo 唱K（不好意思，老是去哩个地方）。中午过后，BF送来了“皇后”的生日蛋糕。历史是惊人的相似，他又买翻同上年一样的cake给我，但他自己竟然不知。其实我只是随意地同他讲过，希望今年有蛋糕吃，他当时没回应，但昨天就无声无息地去订了个 cake ，令我又感动左一大把。他嘴上总是对我凶凶的，但成日会默默地以实际行动给我 surprise 。不象我，只会讲得响亮但没实际行动。

      之后我和BF就去了天河城买礼物。好开心，我终于拥有一直想得到的 TITUS 粉红色皮带手表。虽然那个款式不是我最想要的，但已好满足。

      晚餐我们去 Moon Carol 解决。原本我地吃得好开心，我还是点了每次必吃的儿童套餐。但一想到还有几日我就要过着离开他的生活，吃欲顿消：没有方向感的我时常迷路，搭错车；没有人陪我吃晚饭同消夜；没有人无条件满足我疯狂的购物欲；没有人给我感动的惊喜；没有人供我“虐待”。点算？眼泪就悄悄地落下。刚开始，这是幸福的甜泪，但渐渐就变成离愁的苦泪-----其实不想走，其实我想留，留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬。虽然成日同你吵架，但我发觉已经离不开你，形成习惯性的依赖。除了好好珍惜同你共处的这几天外，我已无力做任何事，留下已是不可能的！我只能在那边默默地想你，坚守对你的承诺。Promise You, I Will.

      今日是中国传统情人节，七夕。我是到晚上看电视才知道的，知道后也没咩感觉，好快便忘记了。晚上十点多，BF突然打了一电话给我，奇奇怪怪地问我有咩想同他讲。我以为他整古我，虽然心里好想同他讲I miss U （因为成日都没见过面，倒不是因为今日是七夕），但在电话里始终难开口。然后恶恶地回应：没话跟你说呀！之后BF话到我楼下接我出来吃消夜。

       落到楼下，上了他车后，发现前座（我坐开的位置）有一束玫瑰花。顿时我心花怒放，好耐都没收过花。我冒出的第一句话居然是：“这花你送给谁的呀？” 他答我“今天是七夕”，我才反应过来。真没想到，在中国的情人节也收到西式的情人节礼物----玫瑰花。我数左一下，有9朵同2朵我最中意的百合：1多盛开，一朵含苞待放。我们两人彼此都在感叹：“今年是我们过的最后一个七夕拉”。然后我安慰他，以后你都会过来USA，大家一齐过节。

      未来充满许多未知数，但起码而家我是乐观、自信同坚定的，对他的感情是不会变迁。我只希望他对我有信心，消除对我的疑虑，毕竟我们又风又雨一起走过了7年。虽然聚少离多，但我直觉认为我们是天注定成为couple的^-^